As September rolls quickly towards us, I have been thinking a lot about my return to school (following a year LOA)...and I think I've decided that it's in my best interest to let it go.
I've spent four years of my life working on the PhD, and I'm halfway finished. But as much as I try to ready myself to write the comprehensive exams, I just can't find my passion for this anymore.
The fact is that I'm feeling the best now that I've felt in years. I'm loving my work and I don't need a PhD to do what I'm already doing...finishing it would mostly be an exercise in vanity.
I'm also worried that the stress of the comps might upset the delicate balance of health that I have fought so hard to achieve.
I used to feel that life without a PhD would be missing something...but I don't feel that way anymore. I'm actually happy with myself and my new-found health.
I have given myself two weeks to decide. But right now it feels like it is slipping away, more easily than I ever thought possible.